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Ayabel ◌ "Aya" (
2014-10-10 05:54 am (UTC)
Aya takes a deep breath.
I don't like it.
I'm not even
concerned about my ability to consent, and if you don't believe me you can interview all my alts, and if you don't think I'm in a good position to determine if my alts are capable of proxy decisionmaking for me you can ask them about that too. I'm not vulnerable to being
taken advantage of
, Adarin, I am vulnerable to
more than anything else is what you could do to hurt me, and I cannot begin to tell you how unsafe it makes me feel that the only concrete reason you have to pay even modest amounts of attention to me is that I'm a
, how much time I have spent
over the fact that I have gone from moderately useful to
an active drain
on your time and emotional resources, that the only things you have seen fit to
of me have been to tell you things that are
hard for you to hear
. This is in no way what I want, or what I
have wanted without the necklace, I am not
of the quiet background redefinition of the word 'burden' you're doing so that you can reassure me because you think you could somehow hurt me
if you let yourself love me back. And I think you
, that's the thing of it, there's every reason to think you could even if you've got a tournament-winning poker face and think it could
possibly hurt me more
to let me see more than hints that you might."
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