namesthesky: (k ~ all the others)
Ayabel ◌ "Aya" ([personal profile] namesthesky) wrote in [personal profile] darkest_evening 2014-10-10 05:54 am (UTC)







Aya takes a deep breath.

"I'm vulnerable. I don't like it. I'm not even remotely concerned about my ability to consent, and if you don't believe me you can interview all my alts, and if you don't think I'm in a good position to determine if my alts are capable of proxy decisionmaking for me you can ask them about that too. I'm not vulnerable to being taken advantage of, Adarin, I am vulnerable to neglect, that more than anything else is what you could do to hurt me, and I cannot begin to tell you how unsafe it makes me feel that the only concrete reason you have to pay even modest amounts of attention to me is that I'm a victim, how much time I have spent literally weeping over the fact that I have gone from moderately useful to an active drain on your time and emotional resources, that the only things you have seen fit to ask of me have been to tell you things that are hard for you to hear. This is in no way what I want, or what I would have wanted without the necklace, I am not accepting of the quiet background redefinition of the word 'burden' you're doing so that you can reassure me because you think you could somehow hurt me more if you let yourself love me back. And I think you could, that's the thing of it, there's every reason to think you could even if you've got a tournament-winning poker face and think it could possibly hurt me more to let me see more than hints that you might."

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